This time last year I was in a similar situation. While I was working my last days at a travel agency, I couldn’t wait to leave for Hawaii to do my 3-month internship with the non-profit organization "Surfing The Nations". Now, months later there are only a few weeks left until I return to this special island in the middle of the Pacific Ocean. Never would I have ever thought that I will end up going back..
During working and saving up some money I was longing for more clarity over my future, guidance, ideas. There were some areas that I could potentially see myself study in. However, a subject of study that I was 100% sure of didn't exist. I also couldn’t see myself staying in the office I was working at this time. I had to change something. Some people know from a young age on, what they want to study, what they want to become. I never had a specific goal.
Spending three months in Hawaii meeting new people, travelling and learning more about myself seemed like the perfect idea to set long-term goals or at least have a more specific vision. 2.5 months in, I still didn’t know what to do after I returned from the island. I quit my job so I didn't have something to go back to. At this point, I was worrying and stressing a lot about my future. Suddenly, one step at a time, things were getting clearer. "Surfing The Nations" has this thing called “Surfers Leadership School” (SLS) which contains 3 months of training and a 1 year commitment. After going back and forth with this thought, I felt a lot of peace about coming back to Hawaii for SLS. I was immensely drawn to Hawaii. The place and people have a big place in my heart. I wanted to help more in the organization, grow more as an individual and gain more leadership skills.
I totally became aware of how it isn’t important to know all the steps or your ultimate goal. You don’t have to know what you will be doing in 5, 10, 20 years. The only thing you need to know is, what makes you happy at the moment, where your heart and passions are. Take little steps, because every step is important and will teach you something. Every step will be part of the bridge you are building. Without one, it is not possible to arrive on the other side. Even if you need to take a step back, it will be worth it in the end.
Don’t worry too much. I know that we human beings prefer to have everything figured out and we struggle with being patient. But worrying doesn't make it any easier. People tend to worry about things that mostly won’t ever happen. Try to live in the moment, fix your eyes on what’s right in front of you and be present. Also, talk to people! This helped me a lot because you are never alone with your struggles. A lot of people are in the same boat as you.
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Jeremiah 29:11: “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”.